NY Showcase, LA Showcase, and BEYOND
To quote Ferris Bueller's Day Off, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it."
As momentum continues picking up in my life, and I approach the end of my college career, this quote resonates with me now more than ever.
Part of me is screeching for joy and blasting proverbial confetti guns over the fact that I only have one more semester of college left before I can snatch my BFA Acting degree.
The other part of me is trepidatious for "the great beyond"; what lies after graduation, what will come of my career, moving away, finding a home away from home, etc.
Fear is a sickness that I've dealt with for too long. When I boil down all the issues I have in my life, they all somehow come back to fear & the notion of not being "good enough".
What I have learned, so far, from the "acting sphere" is that rejection is just a part of the gig. A "no" is not a you're not good enough, why are you trying?, but simply a you're not what WE are looking for, but someone else out there is looking for you. It is foolish to think that I won't encounter bumps in the road and be met with people who maybe don't get me.
That's a part of life.
All I can do is trust that I am enough for myself.
And that is the mantra I am reciting to myself as I prepare my two monologues for New York Showcase in mid-March and my self-written scene for LA Showcase in mid-April.
Because what is a better solution to getting out of your own way than to throw yourself completely in?
To replace the doubt with courage.
To focus on the muses instead of the demons.
To allow myself to trust as opposed to resist.
Stay tuned for the journey, folks! I have a feeling it's going to be a wild one.